So here we are... where it basically all started. 3 years ago, Tom stood in my kitchen on a cold Friday night, holding my hands, leaning up against the wall and asked if he and I could be exclusive. His voice was low and he picked his words was precision timing. He smiled his shy, boyish grin and had that spotlight "deer in the head lights" look for a split second.
So since I'm on a memory lane kick, here are a few excerpts of blogs on wrote back then about him and us.
Dec. 14th, 2003
I haven't stopped smiling in over 48 hours, all because of Tom.
I don't even know where to start. We have, what feels like, a million things in common. He's sweet. Hysterically funny. Incredibly sexy. Kind. Respectful... and I could go on and on...
I find myself thinking about him and just smiling. Oncloud 9... cloud 100!
"tina likes a boy! tina likes a boy!" and "So Tom, huh" were Drew's take on the situation. LOL
I cant remember when I last felt like this. Everything just clicked.
I met him for the first time last Spring, May-ish at Drew's BBQ. He was so freakin' cute but in alot of pain, pinched nerve. But I had a boyfriend and well, that's that. Fast forward to Drew's birthday and Liz and I walk out of her house and I see Tom again - with a girlfriend. I was excited and crushed at the same time. LOL.
And then this past week, it's as if the planets just alined in our favor.
I could sit here and gust over him for hours. I'm not going to jinx it by saying anything "hope-wise" but I will say I dont want this feeling to end any time soon
Dec. 16th, 2003
I have basically seen Tom everyday since last Friday, and it's been amazing. I haven't stopped smiling. For those of you who haven't been reading my journal all that long, I created a wish list for my perfect guy. And after he and I went over it last night, he's a 99% match! I don't remember ever feeling this way. Not about Chris, not about Eddie... it's kismet! I hope. When I find a little more time, there is going to me one long post here all about him. (Friends Only of course, can't have him getting a big head!) He even vaguely hinted at possibly getting together on New Years Eve, maybe I'll actually have someone to kiss a midnight.
Going to see TSO on Dec 29th with Tom, thanks to my new best friend (even though I barely know him) Dave the Canadian! LOL. I'm very excited.
Oh, I finally saw the LOTR: The Fellowship of the Ring last night for the first time. I really liked it. BTW. I'm now Tom's lil hobbit. LOL. It's ok, he's my lil piggy. We are going to watch The Two Towers on Thursday night. They are quite long, but very very good. He fell asleep on me because I was playing with his hair, but I dont mind... he's adorable.
Saturday was Michelle's holiday gathering. It was nice. Her apartment is adorable. Plus, the girl can cook. I have not been hungry very much since last Friday, but I gotta say it was very good. and her brownies are to die for. I like hanging out with all them, Drew, Augusta, etc. I feel comfy. Lis took the GMAT this week, so everyone wish her well!
Tom actually picked me up from Michelle's and we headed to Monk together. When they said he pulled up, I felt my tummy sink. I got all nervous, like a 12 year old going out with a boy for the first time. LOL. He came in stood behind me, covered my eyes; I giggled and then he bent over to give me a kiss. It was so sweet.
At Monk, we met up with Kim, Regina and Brian. It was nice. It felt a little less weird being around Regina, but Kim didn't liook like she was having that great of a time. I also saw 2 of my sister's friends from high school and realized they are allowed to be in Monk now, being 21. LOL. I felt so old, because one of the girl's I've known since she was 9. And then when I saw the 29 y.o. hitting on them I felt very matural, almost as if I wanted to go over and "do you know how old they are!"
The whole night we were either holding hands, hugging, kissing or rubbing each other's back. It felt so safe, relaxed, nature. Almost as if there was nothing else in the world but what we were doing. totally awesome feelings, people.
Dec. 19th, 2003
I've spent the last week with tom and basically he's too perfect for words. Today we spent the entire day together and it was amazing.
He makes me shake. A good shake. A "OMG!" shake.
I'm giggly and silly with him. We have so much in common it's scary and reassuring at the same time.
I'm just so happy right now.
Dec. 25th, 2003
Merry christmas everyone!
Ok, my laptop crashed (again) so this is going to probably be the last post for a little while.
Tom and I are officially dating as og 12.19.03. He is so awesome. This is definitely going somewhere good! I was at his house last night for Christmas eve and it was exactly how I expected it. very loud, loving and hysterically funny. Taboo is not my game! LOL. His family is a Brooklyn version of the waltons. Very wholesome. I'm going to be spending new year's eve with them too.
Registered for winter classes, which start on jan 5th. I'm taking Witchcraft: A Historical Study and English.
On Jan 10th, I think we are all going to reprize drew's birthday bash and turn the tables on Augusta. LOL. she's an incredible chick and deserves it. i think we are waiting on a definite headcount to determine the price per person for the hummer limo for the night. I think i found the perfect gift for her though. LOL
tom also mentioned going skiing in january. which, while i'm all for trying new things, I'm a little scared of going with him. See as how both Dave and Lis almost didn't come back while on his watch. LOL. love you, baby!
Dec. 29th, 2003
tom said he loves me. (personal note: 12.29 @ 3:29am)
Ok, tonight Father Romano took Tom's whole family and the significate others (Dana and I) to dinner to Lai Yuen. The food was excellent. For some reason, tonight I was nervous again. I've seen his family at least 3-4 times already so that wasn't it. And it definitely wasn't going to dinner with Father Romano, seeing as how I practicely grew up with Sister Beata around all the time. I couldn't place it.
The meal was great and afterwards we went back to the house for dessert and we (tom and I vs. Stephen and Dana) played Cranium. (Yes, I found others who like board games!) I had a horrible headache and I figured it was brought on by the nerves earlier in the evening, in addition to the loudness of the house. But it wasn't.
About 11ish, Tom and I came to my place and within minutes the headache subsided. We spent the night together, laughing and just being silly, as usual, and at about 2:30 he left to go home.
Ok, so that's the condensed version - sue me!
Need more details... fine!
I'm head over heels for this man. He's so incredible. I feel so alive and happy with him. My jaw literally hurts from laughing and smiling so much. We have so much in common that we aren't even surprised by it anymore, it'll be a surprise when we differ. Heck, we what the same # of kids (3) in the EXACT same order (Boy, Boy then Girl). We even had the name Anthony picked out. LOL. It's silly, weird things that we have in common.
We already have those private jokes just we know and laugh about. It just feels right. In the past, I found myself anxious about the other person for the first couple of months. With Tommy, I feel so comfortable and relaxed with him already. I dont feel as if I'm competing for his attention. I LOVE that he took it upon himself to introduce me to his family. I don't feel as if he's hiding anything. It's so amazing. And here's how I know it's someone special.
In the past, with exs, FWBs and even friends, I felt I NEEDED to spend alot of time with them. I felt a piece of me was missing when we were apart. I felt scared I was going to lose them. I don't feel that way with this guy. I feel so secure in the relationship, with him and with myself. I feel so "I'm worthy!" In the past, I always felt the person was waiting for some thing better to come along, with this kid I don't feel that way. Most of the time, my insecurities were my own and not directly caused by the other person's actions, most of the time.
I want to take care of him and I like that I feel I can. I feel equal to this person, and I haven't felt that way about ANYONE in forever.
Is it sick that I STILL talk about him in this giddy, school-girl, totally head over heels in love with him.
Happy Anniversary Thomas... I love you and I'm looking forward to all the silliness and craziness that is still to come and adore all the silliness and craziness that has already occured.
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